Making a Breakthrough
Today I made a major breakthrough in overcoming a fear. This will probably sound very silly to some, but it is monumental to me. I left my house and went shopping with my crock pot plugged in and turned on!!!!!!!! I told you it would sound silly to the average person. But for as long as I can remember, I have had an irrational fear of fire in my home. I'm not sure where exactly this fear comes from or why it is so intense.
I've never really had a bad experience with fire; at least not one that I can recall. My friend who believes in past lives thinks that I must have died in a fire in a previous life. My father tells me that I was born prematurely because our house caught on fire and my mother ran to the neighbors to call the fire department and in the process of that run she went into labor. My husband and children tend to think it is just one of my neurotic idiosyncrasies--I tend to think they may be right. Nevertheless, the fear exists.
Now, I am not talking that I just think about fire in my house and get worried. I really do panic about this sometimes. I often smell smoke when there is none and have frequently roused my husband from a sound sleep to have him help me check the entire house because I smell smoke. And just to show you how crazy this is, the "entire house" includes the attic! It's a good thing we don't have a basement! I also have difficulties leaving the house with electrical appliances plugged in and frequently will return home just to "make sure" nothing is on. Oh, and please do not let me hear a fire truck in the vicinity of my neighborhood when I am not home!!!
So, you see, my actions really were a breakthrough--a therapist would be proud! My daughter wanted to go shopping but I was planning on having pork chops simmering in the crock pot all day. I didn't want to disappoint my daughter, so I bit the bullet and I left the house with the crock pot on. Now, I am not saying I wasn't thinking of that crock pot the whole time we were shopping because I promise you I WAS! But I didn't panic--well okay, I did drive a little faster than normal on the way home--and lo and behold, my house was still standing when I got there!
Will I ever do it again? Well that remains to be seen, but I did it today and there is something to be said for baby steps!
I've never really had a bad experience with fire; at least not one that I can recall. My friend who believes in past lives thinks that I must have died in a fire in a previous life. My father tells me that I was born prematurely because our house caught on fire and my mother ran to the neighbors to call the fire department and in the process of that run she went into labor. My husband and children tend to think it is just one of my neurotic idiosyncrasies--I tend to think they may be right. Nevertheless, the fear exists.
Now, I am not talking that I just think about fire in my house and get worried. I really do panic about this sometimes. I often smell smoke when there is none and have frequently roused my husband from a sound sleep to have him help me check the entire house because I smell smoke. And just to show you how crazy this is, the "entire house" includes the attic! It's a good thing we don't have a basement! I also have difficulties leaving the house with electrical appliances plugged in and frequently will return home just to "make sure" nothing is on. Oh, and please do not let me hear a fire truck in the vicinity of my neighborhood when I am not home!!!
So, you see, my actions really were a breakthrough--a therapist would be proud! My daughter wanted to go shopping but I was planning on having pork chops simmering in the crock pot all day. I didn't want to disappoint my daughter, so I bit the bullet and I left the house with the crock pot on. Now, I am not saying I wasn't thinking of that crock pot the whole time we were shopping because I promise you I WAS! But I didn't panic--well okay, I did drive a little faster than normal on the way home--and lo and behold, my house was still standing when I got there!
Will I ever do it again? Well that remains to be seen, but I did it today and there is something to be said for baby steps!
posted by Dianna | 3:24 PM
2 Comments:
I am proud of you! I wish I could do that! lol okay now you have to post everyday to your blog, look your already slacking because you missed a day :0 :)
Nikki
I know! I couldn't think of anything worthy of writing yesterday. I was thinking of maybe posting a photo on days I have nothing to write about, but I have to figure out how to post a photo first--lol!
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